To Reach The Green Light At The End Of The Pier
FOR AS LONG AS IT TAKES: "We are saving ourselves through the words," says Eleanor, the leading lady of a novel-in-progress. This exploration into the creative process -- which includes plenty of distractions/tangents /thoughts & rants by Eleanor, her Biographer, and selected guest artists -- will continue until Eleanor is certain her story is "right." (But we dare not jump ahead of ourselves.)
There will be the occasional typo (as Eleanor points out), and much of this is intended to be "original draft" -- what comes out of our mouths (heads) first, and then set down in that order. Not all of it will be included in the novel, but all of it is happening in real time.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
"Please," she says. "St. Therese," he says.
Eleanor to her Biographer: I am saying Please, God quite a lot lately. I think I'm praying, but maybe I'm not, because you still haven't told me -- I mean, you haven't written me -- this part -- you know -- you haven't given me any information at all about what I do believe in. Do I believe in God? What kind of religion do I have if I do believe in God? Or is religion somehow beneath me, because I'm supposed to have such angst? I mean, is this whole concept about God or no God beneath a made-up character like I am? I just want to know, because we're getting so close to the end. I guess I need to know. Yes, I need to know, and you need to tell me.
Eleanor's Biographer: You favorite Saint is Saint Therese. I've told you this. I've written it down. So, it's a fact -- part of your life. But I don't know the rest yet, even as close as we are to the end. About your beliefs, your convictions. It might be that you just like having a favorite Saint, and there's nothing wrong with that. Lots of people have favorite Saints but don't really go for the idea of God at all. It's like history. You pick your martyr. Your favorite martyr. Kind of like that.
Eleanor: But you do know! You know!
Eleanor (after a pause, and in a whisper): I need to know. Please. Please, write this down for me, and don't cut it out when you revise me. Leave it in, whatever you decide to write. I just want consistency. It's so difficult right now. Maybe not for you, but for me it is.
ELEANOR says: "Please turn the page. Keep reading."
For more of Eleanor and her Biographer -- as well as the work of our many guest artists -- check out the older postings. "Everything is part of the process, and the process is the journey," Eleanor says.