To Reach The Green Light At The End Of The Pier
FOR AS LONG AS IT TAKES: "We are saving ourselves through the words," says Eleanor, the leading lady of a novel-in-progress. This exploration into the creative process -- which includes plenty of distractions/tangents /thoughts & rants by Eleanor, her Biographer, and selected guest artists -- will continue until Eleanor is certain her story is "right." (But we dare not jump ahead of ourselves.)
There will be the occasional typo (as Eleanor points out), and much of this is intended to be "original draft" -- what comes out of our mouths (heads) first, and then set down in that order. Not all of it will be included in the novel, but all of it is happening in real time.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
"If I Needed You"
Eleanor: We are still here. We have not disappeared. We have not run away. Right now we are listening to Townes Van Zandt singing "If I Needed You" on repeat mode, and we are weeping, because we know how Townes died, and that maybe it didn't have to happen like that, you know? We have been thinking. We have been thinking about the world, our world. We have been thinking about what happens next.
E: We have 26 postings left, after this one. To 500. Then we're finished. Done. Over. What happens? We go up in smoke?
I don't know, to be honest.
E: Well, maybe I sort of need to know.
Some people want us to delete everything. That would be a kind of performance art, wouldn't it? Just hit the delete button.
E: Would I still exist?
You will always exist, Eleanor. You will exist long after I am gone from this world.
E: Why do people die?
Because they have to -- eventually, I mean.
E: But I won't die.
I don't plan on doing anything drastic. You might live forever. I don't know. Just one person has to keep believing in you. One person is all. Ten years from now, 50 years, 100 years.
E: Will I still make sense to people then?
I need to make sure of that. Yes, you will.
E: What will I do when you're gone?
You mean, when I die?
E: Yes. I'm afraid of that.
You don't need to be afraid.
E: But I am. Will you sing "If I Needed You" to me? We can turn off the music, and you could just sing it -- for me, and maybe I would not be so afraid anymore.
ELEANOR says: "Please turn the page. Keep reading."
For more of Eleanor and her Biographer -- as well as the work of our many guest artists -- check out the older postings. "Everything is part of the process, and the process is the journey," Eleanor says.